feel stupid & useless

stupid stupid stupid..

why I always make him angry ?

why I always make him disappointed in me ?

why can`t I make him smile..

him smiled proudly at me..

I had to disappoint me again and again..

that makes me feel useless anymore..

useless in front of him..

and no longer useful for me..

makes me feel stupid in front of the world..

made me feel there is no place in the world..

this may be excessive..

but this is what I feel..