feeling stuck part 1

I struggled with feelings ..
uncertain feelings come and go ..
I explained the difficult words and even sentences ..
that my heart's so volatile horrible ..

word for word .. I try describing
sentence by sentence .. I try to express
but the tongue was kept dodging ..
not a wisp of a sentence or a word spoken ..

that there is only silence ..
the silence of my language ..
quiet in the still mute ..
My eyes just imply what I feel ..

I can only look at him ..
with longing eyes would be my ..
who continue to hide behind the emotions themselves ..
who continue to resist any sense of turmoil hurts ..